Matt Hardy rant.
While I’m ranting tonight, I wanna talk about everyone’s favorite “joke” as some would say. Many of you know at one time I was a huge Hardy Boy supporter. And you all know I wasn’t some fake supporter, like someone had to nerve to tell me when I said Matt’s actions weren’t to be defended. I was reading everything that happened, but really tried to not say fuck him and just pretend I never liked him like many did. I know many people liked Matt Hardy. You can say you only ever supported Edge and Lita and hated Matt (and maybe Jeff too) since day one, but I think some of you are lying. Many of us are affected by what we see on the internet, myself included. Most of what I saw from Matt came from the internet and its what made me like him and then slowly begin to hate him.
Now, fast forward to March 9th at the Rahway Rec Center. You can say whatever you want about him, and I don’t defend ANYTHING he’d done in the last few years, and I don’t believe he should be let off either. But if you saw Matt at the event, compared to the last year or so, you would have to admit he looked good. Now, I went into this event feeling very strange. A few years ago going to an event like that one, that pretty much meant I could meet Matt and have a conversation with him? I would’ve been so excited I probably wouldn’t have slept the night before. I’ve met Matt before, and it’s the only thing for a while that didn’t stop me from saying some stuff that other former fans were saying. He might’ve done some bad shit, but he was humble and NICE when I met him. I was young and terrified, not ever being in front of someone I had admired before, and he calmed me down and really made my … really young self feel okay. It was the first wrestler I ever met. I was really happy that day. Anyway, back to the event. I should’ve been excited for his match, should’ve been so excited to talk to him again, but I wasn’t. I was a little confused and almost sad that I was going to see what I had heard was a complete mess (last I had heard about him, he was kicked out of rehab… so what was I supposed to think?). And then Sid no showed the event and Jay Lethal walked out and put on a great match with him.
Matt looked REALLY good and I’m not just saying that. He might still have a stomach, but he looked … FOCUSED … or CLEAN for the first time in such a long time. I sat there and a part of me just freaked the fuck out. The Hardy fan in me jumped like a little girl when I heard Live for the Moment come on… and then I was hooked in a second again. Not stupid hooked, but I saw a part of Matt I hadn’t seen in years. Do I think Matt’s completely … better? (For a lack of betters terms) No, I don’t. I think Matt could fall and crash again just as he did only a few months ago, but for the moment, I think he looks good. I find it amazing that people were chanting some … really nasty shit at him during the match. I get it, you don’t like him. But some of the shit that was said can really get to a person. I don’t care if you’re famous and you’re supposed to deal with it. Fuck that, you’re human and shit gets to you. Especially when many, and many people say it to you. Someone who is recently just out a rehab, trying to put their life back together? Give them a moment. If they fuck up, fine. I get it, too. Matt’s had more than one chance. But so many others had other changes. Look at some other legends, look at some others who’ve done fucked up shit. It’s okay for some to do so, but God forbid someone else fucks up and just because he’s an internet hated, doesn’t mean it’s okay to destroy someone. I won’t even say some other stuff on my mind because it doesn’t matter what I really think. In the end, this is only a rant.
Still, though, I felt the need after the match to tell Matt what I thought about him. I didn’t really know what I was going to say, and let me just tell you, I was terrified. What if he’s nasty to me? What if he remembers my face from that internet rant I sent to him a while ago… (nobody probably even remembers that, I’m sure… it’s okay, I’d like to forget it.) So, I walked up and paid my $20 to get a picture with Matt and there is this fucker telling Matt a bunch of stuff and he didn’t even pay to talk to him. Matt’s annoyed, you can tell but he’s just listening as he says stuff about Jeff and him and how they should make up and … really? Go the fuck away. Who the fuck are you? Who the fuck is anyone, really? We don’t know shit. Unless you’re in the back of the lockerroom at every show, or work in the business, you don’t know anything. For a lot of us… that is us. I’m not saying that he’s perfect, but why the fuck do we think we’re so entitled to say such shit to people? Anyway, the promoter guy who was doing the autographes tells me to wait behind him and then we take the picture as the guy AGAIN is saying shit. I literally step in front of Matt and say, “thank you for the picture.” He smiles, I smile back. I tell him his match was good, better than it would’ve been with Sid, and that I’ve been a fan for a really long time and it was really nice to see you back to the Matt I first saw on TV, and hoped he was doing well. I could be overstepping my place there, too, but he looked at me for a moment, told me thanks, and I left. I don’t know if I should’ve said that (and I don’t even know if I made sense… I talk fast in general and I was nervous and I probably sounded like some blahblah type thing, LOL.) But I felt as if it was something I needed to say, as if to apologize for stuff I’ve said.
Let me just say… I’ll never be the Matt Hardy fan I once was, but I’m not going to keep attacking a man for something that happened in the past, while he is trying to move past it. I could understand if he was still in and out of rehab, but he’s not. And if he’s not making an ass of himself, neither should you. We’re all human, can we please act like it more often…
